Part three Chapter six

I was now a regular at the Chestnut tree. I would go alone to drink gin. I still struggled with false memories of my childhood. But then I would look up at the telesceern and here about the battles we were winning in Africa and I knew that was truth. I ran into Julia, I told her I betrayed her and she said the same thing, so I walked away. I thought back to the Ministry of Truth, and the bullet I wished for. Now I looked up at the poster of Big Brother on the wall. The struggle with myself was finally over. I LOVE BIG BROTHER.

Part three Chapter five

O'Brien took me to Room 101. He informed me that Room 101 was the person's worst fear. He told me that mine was rats. How could he do this?! I would do anything to not see those creepy creatures. There were two and O'Brien already pushed down the first lever to release the rats that were no more than two meters away. The mask was coming closer, closer I was terrified. I knew that only one could stop the rats. So I started yelling that this should happen to Julia. She should be punished, stripped to the bones, not me!

Part three Chapter four

I grew stronger after my surrender and I began to stop questioning the Party. How could they be wrong? Sanity is statistical, I just had to learn the way they thought. Freedom is Slavery. Two and Two Make Five, God is Power. I realized it is better to think along the same lines as the Party, or else it is like swimming against the current. Then they came into my room and said I needed to go to Room 101 for the final step in my treatment... loving Big Brother.

Part three Chapter three

O'Brien was breaking me down and all I could do was agree with him. My body has worn out and I am disgusted when I look in the mirror. He told me no one could do anything to stop the party, and all he had to do to prove his point is pull a handful of hair out of my head. He informed me that I was beaten by the party, everything was futile. He told me that I was the last man, my kind is extinct, and now the party controls all.. I am starting to believe him.

Part three Chapter two

I woke up to O'Brien standing over me. I remembered that I have gotten beaten a number of times and each time it was getting worse. Then beatings became less frequent and I was just getting questioned more often. I admitted to things that I knew were not true, and they knew they were not true. Then O'Brien came again and started tortuing me with an electric device, the pain was severe even when it was only at level forty. He then proceeded to "make me sane" as he called it. He told me what was right and what was wrong. The pain I suffered was immense so I stopped disagreeing. He finally told me two plus two makes five and I had to believe him.

Part three Chapter one

I woke up...I was almost certain that this was now the Ministry of Truth, but did not know for sure. Before I think I was in a regular prison, because it was so crowded and there were political prisoners and common criminals. It seems as if the common criminals get better treatment from the guards, and us political prisoners get stuck with the dirty jobs. I met a fat disgusting lady named Smith also and she said she could have been my mother. Back in the Ministry I was under great amounts of pain, when O'Brien came in. He told me that he got caught along time ago and that I already knew that. Then a guard struck my elbow, and I have never been in so much pain before, it was inconceivable. While I writhed on the floor I though that there were no heroes under so much pain.

Part two Chapter ten

When Julia and I awoke, I looked out at a prole woman, at least fifty, that was singing while doing laundry. It was there I realized her beauty, even though she was red and coarse and ballooned from childbearing she was beautiful in her own way. I thought that must be the meaning in Goldstein's book, that proles are the future. I realized the future was the hope, and we are dead. I heard the telescreen repeat, "You are dead." We were surrounded, and then Mr. Charrington and other thought police came in and had Julia and me surrounded.